MacNut Week 28

Technically, this is what's going on this week:

• MacNut is the weight of a Chinese cabbage - ~ 14.80 inches and 2.22 pounds (1 kg!).
• She has her own regular intervals for sleeping and being awake.
• The feet are just over 2 inches (5.5cm) long.
• The hair on the head is now clearly visible.
• The milk teeth have developed under the gums.
• The eyes are starting to move in their sockets.

Physical:

• Weight: 148 lb (+22)
• Belly circumference: 38 in (+7.50)
• Fundal height: 27 in 
• I continue to go to the chiropractor to get treatments.  I am not very regular with my assigned exercises, but it's going alright.
• My appetite has been poor due to everything that has been happening in the family.
  

Spiritual & emotional:

• Emotionally speaking, this is the worst week of my pregnancy thus far.  As mentioned last week, my nephew Caleb has brain cancer.  We learned on Wednesday that it is terminal and he was then sent home to be with family and to receive hospice care.  Wednesday night, I caught a ride with a friend's mom (thank you so much, April & Charlotte!) and came down to Oregon to be with family.  It has been rough.  I don't know what else to say...
• Do you ever notice that when you experience heartache, you actually don't take deep breaths often?  It's true for me.  I do shallow breathing.  As though breathing in air reminds me that I'm actually alive...and the present reality is, well, real.  I create for myself safe and comfortable coping mechanisms.  Right now, I often retreat to the coping mechanism of entering into a million and one giveaways and contests.  It has been consuming my life...and I'm letting it because I am just so tired of crying.
• Prayer has been more or less continuous throughout the day.  It's not superb, but I sense that God has brought me to the point of greatest brokenness.  It seems that He has to bring me to a point where I am most likely to curse His name so that I can learn to praise it instead.  God, I am so there right now.
• We are praying for a big miracle.  Let it be known!  It is in writing!  We are cognizant of the scientific reality.  But we know that God is able to heal Caleb and give him physical wholeness just as He is capable of restoring spiritual wholeness to those who believe.  We are praying that it is God's will that Caleb be healed.  Please pray with us.