Parenting...is hard

Ain't that the truth.

As a friend has reflected, "Have to say, I sometimes want to go back in time and smack my pre-parent self for being judgy."

I just feel that no matter what I'm doing, I'm doing it wrong...and I'm also doing it awesomely. There is intense cognitive dissonance between my beliefs about parenting and the extreme spurts of anger I often feel when, well, I'm tired of being a grown up.

Anyway, there are so many articles these days about parenting. How it's hard. How people are judgy. But it's okay, dang it! So don't be too hard on yourself. In response to these articles, I'd like to say, "B*tch please!" I've been lazy-parenting since I developed ovaries.

I am, however, constantly thinking about how my actions (or behavior, rather) affect the kids. I am yelling a lot these days. And I'm nearly convinced that I may have borderline personality disorder. One moment I'm so deeply thankful for my kids, and the next I want to strangle them (not literally, never, ever; please don't call CPS). I'm grateful that there is grace in all of this mess. Consider: God is the perfect parent, but how screwed up am I?! Rather than striving for perfection in this parenting thing, I really should be praying more. I really should be trusting more.

Also, I'd just appreciate some more sleep. And to poop in peace.

So, yes, I was on my phone while pooping

Woohoo! That's two blog posts on two consecutive days! This is part of something new that I'm trying: blogging for 5 minutes each day. Partly to emote. Partly because I'm procrastinating (senioritis, you know).

A poopeecopius journey: The Bao Ng story...by Bao Ng

We've heard that potty training requires the all important 3 P's: preparation, praise, and patience.

Let me tell you a secret: there are no imperative requirements. Just like most things with parenthood, sometimes there is just "go."

A couple of Saturdays ago (11/17), we went to a birthday party for one of Camille's little friends and we met a 14-month-old girl who was potty trained except for nighttime. Chin was so impressed that he wanted to see if we could do this for Camille.

Back up a couple of years... We started potty training Camille at the tender age of 7 weeks old. You did not misread. We started her before she turned 2 months old. We did Elimination Communication (EC) with her for many, many months. She did quite well with both pooping and peeing when held over the toilet or sitting on the potty. Yay! We saved on a ton of diapers.

Then we got lazy...because EC is a heckovalot of work!

Even though we weren't so diligent with EC, we would often put her on the toilet or potty chair after meals to give her a chance to poop. She also did quite well with this.

More recently (oh, say the last 5-6 months), she started not liking the toilet. Girlfriend had more fun things to do. It was tough to get her to sit on the toilet...but it was even more frustrating to change her diaper. Camille has never liked diaper changing times. She would so rarely lay still. So frustrating!!

So, the day after we attended this birthday party, Chin prompted the conversation about potty training. I.e.: all or nothing, just straight to underwear during the daytime.

To give you a little background to this story: I am going through a fulltime doctoral program in nursing, I'm the only parent to wake up multiple times at night to tend to baby Marcus, and I'm just tired all the time. Needless to say, I felt overwhelmed by the possibility of the added task of potty training Camille. But I also felt that I had failed Chin in so many other ways that I couldn't say no. (This is not a prompt for a pity party. I really did feel this way and I think my feelings were valid.)

Apprehensively, I went forth with this effort. That Sunday afternoon while Chin was out grocery shopping, I put Camille in a pair of undies. Was this the point of no return? I dunno. I was going to see what was going to happen next.

What happened next was a puddle of pee in the dining room. Followed by another puddle in the chair. And a puddle in the [carpeted] living room. And then she peed while Chin was holding her that evening.

The next day, I was ready: lots of M&M's as rewards, a pile of clean underwear and pants, a full container of diluted juice to get her going frequently (more opportunities for practice!), bleach wipes, a potty training toilet adapter ring thingy, and some flushable wet wipes. That's preparation for ya. I was totally ready to dole out the praises, too. The patience part...well, we'll see.

That day (the first full day of potty training), she pretty much decided that she would pee everywhere except for in the toilet even though I was taking her to go every 20-30 minutes.

I was so frustrated and wanted to quit. I called up my friend Krista and told her that I was convinced Camille will go to prom in a diaper. I was so mad at Chin for "commissioning" me with this task while he gets to take a minimal role in cleaning up the mess.

But I remembered what Krista said about potty training her son Will, "The first week of potty training, you will feel like it was never going to work. Just keep at it." So I did.

The next day, she managed to deposit all her excrements in the toilet. Yes, all day! This included several outings and a road trip down to Longview for Thanksgiving. This dry streak lasted for over 50 hours, including nighttime. I was so proud of her. I cried. So, so proud!

Since then, she has had just a handful of "accidents;" all caused by us not being mindful of putting her on the toilet regularly. Her diaper has been dry over 50% of the time during the night, too.

And for some reason, Camille is soooo much more pleasant to be around after this switch to big girl underpants! I just feel like the luckiest mother alive. :)

That's it. Our girl is no longer wearing onesies. She might as well shop for a prom dress while she's at it.

Camille: Hilarious

Some amusing moments around the Ng households lately...as told on Facebook:

By Bao on 12/1/2011:

The dreaded "toddler drew all over the wall with markers" happened today...at daycare. Sucks to be daycare. Awesome to be me!

By Chin on 12/6/2011:

Last night, Camille learned how to flush the toilet. She'd flush the toilet, laugh hysterically, and then clap her hands in celebration. "Yaaaay..."

This morning, Bao was puking into the toilet due to morning sickness. Camille walks up to Mom, watches her for a few seconds, pats her on the back, flushes the toilet, then claps her hands in celebration. "Yaaaay..!"

By Bao on 12/6/2011:

Camille had this sneaky smile on her face. I asked her, "Do you need to go potty?" (in Vietnamese) and she raised her eyebrows. I asked, "Did you already go?" She gave me an enthusiastic, "YEAH!" Confirmed. Oh boy...

By Bao on 12/31/2011:

Me: A is for...?
Camille: Apple!
Me: B is for...?
Camille: Bapple!

By Chin 1/1/2012:

I had just finished giving Camille a bath, but had to go upstairs to fetch a diaper. I figured letting her wander around for 1 minute wouldn't be a problem.

When I came back, she was throwing things in the toilet. I thought, "Oh no! She's throwing her bath toys in the toilet." Upon closer inspection, she had crapped all over the floor, was picking up her own poop, and throwing the chunks into the toilet.

A+ for picking up after yourself, little girl.

Camille's eleventh month: A review

Wow, this post is 1/2 a month overdue.  Is it because I'm in denial that when the next post is written, Camille will be a ONE year old?  Perhaps.

As you can see in the above picture, our pint-sized wonder is getting into everything.  She's more independent.  A strong crawler and climber.  She's making advances toward bipedal movements.  Super active.  We're so tired! :)  There haven't been a whole lot of new "tricks" and development this month, but Camille is definitely standing on her own a bit longer everyday (still under 5 seconds).

We had prayed that she would be an affectionate child.  And thankfully, this month she has shown that she is capable of snuggling and giving hugs!  We love her. :)

The specs
As of July 9, 2011 (not at a clinic, just on a bath scale at Grandma & Grandpa Ng's):

• Weight: 15 lb 
• Height:? maybe taller than last month?

Milestones & important events
June 16 - Camille learned how to clap on the cruise.  I didn't even know she could clap (um, because I didn't teach her).  One of the ladies on the cruise taught her how to clap and she picked it up right away.

June 17 - Camille says her first multi-syllabic word: tickle.  I would tickle her and say, "Tickle tickle tickle!"  And she would say, "Duckle!  Duckle!"  I take it that she's a genius.  (Btw, "Duckle" is one of her favorite things to say now.)

June 19 - Happy 1st Father's Day, Chin!

June 23 - Bao's first day back at school.

June 24 - After being chewed on one time too many by Camille, my laptop charger died.

"I am innocent."

June 28 - In the middle of the night, Camille rolled around and whimpered a bit.  Me (to Chin): "I think she's cold.  Maybe we should put pants on her." Chin (half sleeping): "I will give you $1,000 if you do it." Of course, he was referencing Three Men and a Baby.  But I took his money anyway and we made a trip out of it...to Southern California to attend the first centennial celebration for the Vietnamese church!

July 1 - First airplane ride!  Did well.  Slept half of the flight and played for the other half.  Very pleasant.  We went down to Southern California and had a fun, short vacation.

"Happy 4th of July!"

July 4 - Second airplane ride.  Did not do as well.  She wasn't fussy, just screamed really loud.  Some fellow passengers were real sourpusses about it.  Can't say I blame them.  Wish we had duct tape!

July 9 - While we were out running errands in Seattle, Chin & I decided that we'd just take a spontaneous trip to Longview!  With nothing packed, we managed to make it work.  (It may not sound very special to those of you who don't have children, but it was kind of a big deal for us.)

July 11 - 7Elevens had their free Slurpee day today!  Camille and I went to get one.  She insisted on sucking on the straw.  We'd tried and tried introducing the straw to her for the past 4-5 months.  And finally, the Slurpee did it!  From this day forth, she knows how to suck fluids up a straw.  Amazing!

Favorite part...
Family snuggle time.  Every morning before Chin goes to work, the three of us would just roll around in bed together.  Mostly it's Camille snuggling with us for about 30 seconds and then the rest of the time, the two of us are trying to wrangle her.

Least favorite... 
When I feed Camille, she doesn't want to eat, she squats food away, and it lands in the most inconvenient places.  Somehow, there's always food in her hair!

Shout outs
...to all the old peeps on the Holland America Cruise.  They were all real cool.

...to Lam and my sister GT for helping us watch Camille while I was at school!

Look at that pouty face. (Picture taken by Auntie Lam)

...to the Chins for lending us a stroller for our trip to California.  I highly recommend getting the MacLaren Volo!

...to GT & Wayman for taking us to and bringing us back from the airport.

Discoveries & reflections
...Words & phases often heard around here these days:

• "WHAT is in her mouth?"
• "No screaming!"
• "Camille!!  EAT!!"
• "Argh!! Not on the carpet!!"
• "Nooooo!  Stop eating Mommy's textbooks!" (But we all know this is as much action as these things are ever going to get.)
• "She's made a patty." (Translation: "She has pooped.")
• "She's giving birth." (Translation: "She's very constipated.")
• "It's TJN time!" (Translation: "Time to give her a bath.  Her neck smells like toe jam." TJN = toe-jammy neck.)

"What?"

...We've been doing elimination communication since Camille was pretty little.  We started associating a "psst psst psst" sound with toileting since the day she was born.  Nowadays when I put her over the toilet, rather than waiting for me to make the sound, Camille would make the "psst psst psst" sound. :)

...After many months of feeding solids to Camille, I am still incapable of spoon-feeding her without mimicking the eating movements with my own mouth.  You know what I'm talking about!

...When Camille doesn't eat or drink, it makes me want to cry.

...The last thing a mom of a skinny kid wants to hear is grandmas telling her, "Could you try a little harder to feed her more?"

...Her lack of weight is always a concern for us.  I just want to write that down so that there's a written record somewhere.  We do feed her.  We do care about her deeply.  For some reason, people (grandparents, mostly) are not so convinced of this.

...Camille's love for her dad is one of the most amazing things I've been fortunate enough to witness. Her eyes light up and she gives the brightest smile when Daddy comes home from work. He makes her laugh out loud. They have a blast together. I love it!

Fun times with BaBa

...Camille has my thighs. I'm sorry.

...Camille has my temperament. I'm sorry.

...It used to be that every month, we (I) would go through Camille's clothes and put aside the items that she has outgrown.  This month: nothing.  In fact, I feel that she's even regressing and can fit into 3-6 month stuff!  Our baby has simply stopped growing.

"I fart rainbows."

...When Camille is well-rested, she will wake up very happy.  She will smile and clap when I go in to get her.  If she ever wakes up really irritated, it's best if I let her cry for a couple of minutes and let her fall back asleep.  It works nearly every time!

...Camille is starting to look like a kid.  Like a toddler.  No more baby Camille. :(

The last sticker picture before she turns ONE!

Camille's tenth month: A review

Again, a late post.  Sorry, fans!  We were on a cruise, you see, and we just came back a few days ago.  Also, today is the last day of my maternity leave.  I go back to school tomorrow.  *sniff sniff hooray!*

"What's up, Cat?"

Naturally, Camille continues to brighten our lives with all sorts of loveliness.  Here are the ways that she's grown lately:

• Camille likes to mimic sounds.  One day, I made a clicking sound with my tongue and amazingly, she was able to copy me!  When we say "baba" or "please" or "yucky," it seems like she's trying to imitate the sound, too.
• She is very particular with toys.  She likes toys that are (1) not her toys from home, and (2) not intended to be toys...like electrical wires.
• She loves to play with the dresser in her room.  It is just a matter of time before some little fingers get smashed.  I'm not ready for that day.
• Camille will wave hello/goodbye, but very unpredictably.
• Her manual dexterity continues to improve.  She can take a small piece of cereal with her thumb and forefinger, transfer it to the thumb and forefinger of the other hand, and insert it into her mouth but only far enough so that she can slowly crunch it with her six front teeth.  Girlfriend's got skills!
• A few people have commented on how strong Camille is.  I don't think she's extraordinarily strong.  I think people are just caught off guard that a girl this scrawny can have any muscle strength at all! :P  She has started to walk gripping onto our hands.  At first, she would only take a few steps before getting distracted/bored/thinking "I can crawl so much more efficiently than this."  But she is slowly making more progress and is taking increasingly more steps.  Still, I don't want her to be an early walker.  Our house is totally not toddler proof!
  

Messin'

The specs
As of June 10, 2011:

• Weight: 15 pounds even
• Teeth: 2 at the bottom, 4 at the top

Pig tails

Milestones & important events
May 19 - While Camille was laying down, I said, "Do you wanna stand?" (I say this a lot)...and she extended her arms to grab onto my hands so I could help her up!  Also, later that day, the OT/lactation consultant at Children's called for a check-in.  Hearing that there is no progress in the drinking department, she said, "There isn't anything mechanically wrong.  Camille knows how to drink.  It's just a matter of her strong will.  I wonder if your best option might just be to cut off nursing completely so that she could learn how to drink from another source.  And then it might be possible to reintroduce breastfeeding later once she's gotten a hang of drinking from a cup."

May 20 - I started cutting off breastfeeding completely.  This was a very difficult decision but I was just so tired of battling with Camille.  The following days were pretty unpleasant.  Every time she woke up, she expected breastfeeding.  When we offered her milk in a cup, she was very upset.

May 22 - After over 48 hours of holding out on breastfeeding her, Camille had only taken in a cumulative of 4 oz of milk.  We were both very frustrated.  I called up Krista to ask for her advice.  Well, she didn't have any advice for me (ha!), but it was a good conversation that gave me insight into my own stubbornness.  I resumed breastfeeding Camille that morning.  She was so happy and fell asleep right away.  What a sweet girl.

May 23 - Camille was mistaken for a parrot at Grocery Outlet. 

June 1 - Went down the slides for the first time!

Down the slides with BaBa

June 8 - While playing, hanging onto the couch, Camille suddenly pushed the couch away and stood on her own for a few seconds.  Then she sat down on her bum...with a huge, proud grin on her face. :)  She hasn't done that very often since then, though.  We also had an appointment at Seattle Children's GI department today.  Verdict: she's perfectly healthy...and incredibly strong-willed.

June 9 - Camille climbed up a step all by herself.  We live in a small apartment with no stairs inside the living space and Camille has not had an opportunity to try out this skill.  When we were visiting the Pangs, she wanted to come to me and climbed up a step (from the sunken living room) to get to me.  Good job, Miu Miu!!

June 11 - I put Camille's hair in pigtails for the first time (her hair is getting long and her neck is always so sweaty).  She looks supah cute!  She looks like Boo, the little girl from Monsters, Inc.

June 12 - We take off for a week-long cruise to Alaska.  The first time for all of us!

We're on a boat!

Favorite part...
Chin took some time off for the cruise.  Being together as a family was definitely the highlight of this month!

Least favorite... 
Do I need to say it again?  I think my least favorite moments involve having milk (oh yes, milk that I took so much effort to pump) spat out at me or spilled on the carpet/clothes/hair/etc.

Shout outs
...to Kristie for babysitting Camille several times during our sippy cup training trials.  So, so sorry, Kristie!!

...to Jonas Leong for lending Camille his fancy sippy cup.  Unfortunately, she didn't like it :(

...to the Grays for taking Camille when we were just fed up with her...and giving her the love and comfort that she needed at the time.  Thank you so much!

...to Dr. Ghassan Wahbeh at Seattle Children's GI Clinic for letting us know that Camille is totally fine and that she should be given more fruits so she won't be so constipated.  Oops!  As Chin said, "This guy really knows his sh!t."

...to Grandma Ng for watching Camille so many times on the cruise so we could go watch shows and leisurely buffet ourselves to death.

Discoveries & reflections
...I think every parent has had that moment when the thought briefly crosses their mind, "Hmm...this [food] kinda smells like [my child]'s poop.  No!!  Stop thinking this!  Stop thinking this right now!"

*Evil laugh*

...It seems inevitable that we have to cut Camille's hair soon.  The back of her neck gets really sweaty as the weather is getting warmer because of her thick hair.  Awww...I don't wanna cut her hair!

...Someone recently asked me, "Have you been teaching Camille baby sign language?  You know, it's proven to blah blah blah."  To which I responded, "Of course I've been teaching her sign language!"  I have not.  I haven't taught her body parts or how to clap or any good words.  Crap, I guess you're not going to amount to much, kid!

...I think Camille is really smart.  No, no, I'm not just that biased mom who thinks her baby is the best.  She is empirically the best!!

It's been an incredible 10 months
staying home with you, Camille!

Camille's ninth month: A review

This post is obviously a few days late.  Sorry, Camille's fans!

We've had a busy month and the past few days have been a bit challenging with stubborn child not wanting to drink, friend in a coma, and us attending a marriage retreat...

Next month, I go back to school.  Wow!  I am both stoked and scared to go back to school.  I would love to once again interact with grown-ups.  But I am a little apprehensive about (1) my academic muscles being atrophied, (2) Camille not drinking while I'm away, and (3) missing the little girl. :(

Camille & Auntie GT (my sister)

Well, this little girl continues to grow developmentally...although not so much in terms of weight:

• Started making the waving/grasping hand motion for "hi" and "bye"...although I'm not sure if she's doing them on purpose.
• Pincer grip!  It's here in full force!  She loves playing with her food.
• She likes to drum on things and bang toys together.  She's starting to nod and shake to music!
• Loves playing peek-a-boo.  I think she gets object permanence, though, because she will go look for things that are hidden underneath the covers or inside my palm.
  
  

  

  Playing peek-a-boo with Kaia

• Can sit up on her own
• Can crawl
• Can pull herself up to a standing position.  This also means that she will take forever to go to sleep because she's just up...exploring her new skills!
• Very, very talkative at home and in the backseat of the car.  Once she's in public, how much she babbles depends on how comfortable she feels in that environment.  Her babbling has gotten more "sophisticated."  She says "BaBa" ("Daddy" in Cantonese) a lot; although we're not sure she knows what she means.  She just started saying "Mumma"...and this melts my heart.

The specs

As of May 17, 2011:

• Weight: 14 lb 7.5 oz (off the bottom of the chart!)
• Height: 27.75 in (50-75%ile)
• Head circumference: 16.5 in (5%ile)
• Teeth: 2 at the bottom, 4 at the top

Milestones & important events
April 23 - An unexpected drive through some of Washington's most beautiful sites!  First time visiting Skykomish, Leavenworth, Cle Elum, and Roslyn...first time for all of us.

Our family outside of the Roslyn Cafe
(from the show "Northern Exposure"!)

April 26 - Camille sits up on her own.

April 27 - For the first time ever: No poop!

April 28 - Camille bit me during nursing (intentionally!) and got herself in trouble.  I disciplined her for the very first time by putting her in time out...in her crib.  She started crying immediately because she knew she was in trouble!  I left her her there for 2-3 minutes.  After that, she never bit me again!

May 2 - It's hard to say when Camille started crawling because she's been scooting for a while now.  But this was approximately when she started making all the crawling motions and propelled herself forward...toward electrical wires.

May 5 - Cinco de Mayo!  Midwives Day!  Children's Day!  I took Camille to Children's for an appointment in the OT/PT department to get help with her drinking.  I also found out that day that Camille learned how to pull herself up to a standing position while she was in her crib.  How did I find out?  Via the baby monitor.  She stood up, reached out of the crib for the camera, took the camera into the crib and started chewing on it.  *sigh*  This girl...

May 7 - Camille's first Shrimp Feast!

May 8 - My first official Mother's Day (I'd already had 2 Mother's Days being with child)!  We also dedicated Camille at church.

We may look like we're posing,
but we are just really that perfect looking

May 12 - International Nurse's Day!  In honor of this day (joke), I started cutting down the number of times I nurse Camille.  Instead of nursing Camille four times a day (waking up, after first nap, after second nap, and before bed), I started cutting out the middle two sessions.  I was simply too frustrated with the fact that she was not making any progress in drinking and just wanted her to get desperate enough to try and drink.  Read more about this here.

Favorite part...
Hearing Camille babble/sing in the back seat.  Such a sweet sound.  She's so talkative!  In the middle of the night one night, she woke up, sat up in bed, babbled a few things for about 5 seconds, and then laid down and fell back asleep.  I love this girl a lot!

Least favorite... 
The sound of a snotty nose.  Camille still not taking milk out of the bottle/cup (and barely any other liquid).

Shout outs
...This is a belated shout out.  I can't believe I missed it!  Shout outs to Kristie for getting Camille her Fisher Price booster chair!  We use it everyday and it is so useful!

...to Mina for babysitting so I could go to my eye appointment.  Camille napped extra long that day and was very happy to see that Auntie Mina was still there when she woke up.  Thank you, Mina!!

...to Gayle Bonato for the thorough assessment of Camille's feeding problems and for offering great advice!

...to Lindsey for watching Camille while we spent much needed time away at the marriage retreat!

Discoveries & reflections
..."Have I brushed my teeth today?  I coulda sworn I have.  I distinctly remember applying toothpaste on the toothbrush.  I was standing right here...no wait, was that yesterday? *use tongue to check for dental cleanliness*  Hmm...  What have I eaten today?"  I have this thought going through my head nearly everyday.

...It doesn't matter if you have reached your pre-pregnancy weight or weigh even less.  If you routinely unbutton your jeans around the house, you have not lost all that baby weight!

...I have learned that I am self conscious about my postpartum pooch.  Just a little, usually.  Sometimes a lot.

...I think I would enjoy breastfeeding a lot more if I don't have the stress of transitioning her to a bottle/cup.

...No matter how freaking fantastic Daddy is, Mommy is the bottom line.  (But Camille's Daddy is pretty freaking fantastic!!)  Daddy can afford to reach a certain threshold and say, "I can't do this anymore."  Mommy never has the luxury to do so.  If all the Mommies of the world can bank on an equitable division of labor, say that they have reached their limit and then pass on the baton, I think that would be a pretty scary picture.  (Happy Mother's Day, Momkind!)

...When people say, "Wow, she feels so light!"  I hear, "So...how come you're not feeding her?"  When people say, "It's okay that she's skinny.  As long as she's healthy, right?  She doesn't even look that skinny to me, she looks just right."  I hear, "So...how come you're not feeding her?"  I know that's not what people mean.  But...such is the plight of a mother whose child is a bean pole.

...The more I feed Camille, the more she poops.  Some days, the volume of output seemingly exceeds the volume of input.  Seriously!  It seems like the act of feeding her is equivalent to earning and income.  And her pooping is equivalent to income tax.  The less effort I put into feeding her, the less poop comes out.  On days when she's been a good eater, she poops a lot!  Sometimes, I just say, "Why bother?!"  If I just don't feed her at all, can I just go on some form of...public assistance?

...I am finding that sometimes my attempts to be honest and transparent just sound like whining.  I post on Facebook all the time about my struggles with motherhood.  Recently, I've been wondering if it sounds like I'm just whining a lot.  Really, though, I just want to put it out there so no one would be under the illusion that this motherhood thing is all pink roses and maple bars (that's a saying, isn't it?).

...I have learned that I have no idea how to even start baby-proofing this place :-/

I like her a lot

EatiNG ... not so much drinkiNG

I'm really excited that Camille is eating solids now.  Sometimes it takes a lot of work.  Most of the time it is super messy.  But it is FUN!!

"I'm here. Feed me!"

We started introducing Camille to solids soon after she turned 6 months.

Here is what Camille has tried so far (kind of in order, but not really):

• Oatmeal cereal
• Banana
• Greens (usually served steamed and whole for her to munch on): spinach, broccoli, bok choy, lettuce
• Japanese white yams
• Sweet potatoes
• Rice & other grains: jasmine, sushi, brown, quinoa, puffed kamut
• Multigrain cereal
• Legumes: refried beans, peas, garbanzo beans, lentils, green beans
• Pho noodles
• Butter & olive oil
• Fruits: blueberries, papaya, avocado, apple, pear, mango, kiwi
• Yogurt (full fat & Greek style)
• Cheese: cottage, Laughing Cow Swiss cheese, cream cheese
• Squash: butternut, zucchini, yellow
• My mom's chicken congee: rice, chicken, lotus seeds, and mung beans
• Spices & flavors: curry, pepper, agave
• Coconut cream
• Hummus
• Bready stuff: bread (w/out nuts or honey in the ingredients list), injera, tortilla
• Asparagus (spears)
• Veggie chips
• Carrots (pureed and whole)
• Cherios
• Mango sorbet!
• Probably lots more that we can't remember

Camille likes variety

I started a food journal for Camille to have a written record of possible reactions she might have to certain foods.  After about three weeks, I got lazy and we just started winging it.  So far, she has shown no signs of adverse reactions to any of the food we have fed her.  Yay!

I make most of Camille's food.  I actually enjoy it!  At night when Camille has already gone to bed, I get out the veggies & whatnot and I do some experimenting.  Mostly, I roast/bake the veggies and then I use an immersion blender to puree the food.  Some foods don't need pureeing, though.  Like bananas, avocado, ripe papaya, congee, etc.

Top to bottom: peas, quinoa, sweet potatoes,
Japanese yams, butternut squash, blueberries

Have you heard of Baby-led Weaning/Baby Led Solids?  It's a simple concept that babies don't need purees.  While purees aren't bad for them, solids that babies pick off of our plates are perfectly fine.  Some of my hesitations about this philosophy are: choking and mess.  Well, first...  If you have a baby, I strongly recommend taking an infant CPR course or at least look up some YouTube videos.  There are lots of things babies can choke on, not just food.

My first concern was quickly dispelled once I observe how Camille eats.  When she eats purees, she just swallows.  When she eats finger foods (even at 6 months old with no teeth), she knows how to negotiate them in her mouth and not swallow large chunks.  She has on occasions gagged (which is different from choking where her airway is compromised) and spat out large chunks of food that she couldn't swallow.  Babies are much smarter than we give them credit for!

My second concern is, well, confirmed! :)  Baby-led solids is really messy.  Especially at the end of the meal when everything ends up on the floor.  It'd be nice to have a dining room where the floor is not carpeted.  But, who cares, we live in an apartment and it's not our carpet anyway, right? ;)  My least favorite thing, though, is getting food out of her massive head of hair!

On the floor: broccoli, zucchini, yellow squash

This has been our meal time routine:

1. I prepare meals for both of us and set them on the table
2. I give thanks for our meal
3. I offer Camille liquids in a sippy cup (either water, expressed milk, or diluted juice).  She never takes milk but she will drink the other stuff.
4. I feed her pureed stuff by spoon.  She has been taking about 2 oz of purees (a standard size baby food jar is 2.5 oz) during each meal.  Sometimes almost 4 oz if she's just really hungry.
   4a - She finishes her pureed foods.
   4b - She makes a poopy face, I take her to the potty, she poops, I change her, and then we're back at the table to finish her purees.
5. Then I offer her the finger foods so she can explore and make a mess.  I take this time to eat my meal.  I will usually share my low-sodium foods with her and she seems to enjoy these foods the best since they're big people food!
6. She throws food on the floor to signal she's done.  I think every kid does this.  How do they learn to signal stop without throwing food on the floor?  I dunno.  But for now, it's okay.
7. I clean up.

Chomping on a banana


Things that I have learned on this journey of transitioning Camille to solids:

• It's messy, messy, messy
• It's totally fun!
• I should wash my hands more often
• I should really wash Camille's hands more often...especially since I'm offering her finger foods
• After a while, convenience trumps BPA/phthalate-free (I use zip lock bags a lot in freezing pureed foods)
• Initially when we first started solids, Camille would nurse more frequently.  So she was getting at least the same amount of milk plus the solids she was taking in.  Slowly, I think she's getting more full with solids and is taking in less milk.  I don't know, though, since I still breastfeed and I am not sure how much she's drinking.
• Camille will usually take a very small bite at first to gauge whether the food is to her liking.  And then she will either open wide for the subsequent spoons...or clamp shut!
• I've never met a kid who doesn't like blueberries
• Camille loves big people foods
• She gains mad manual dexterity skillz due to the fact that she was introduced to finger foods early on
• I should feed her purees and finger foods at separate times.  If she gets purees and chunks of solids in her mouth at the same time, she's more prone to gagging (and possibly choking).
• She will drink when she gets thirsty
• She doesn't get as thirsty enough or drink enough to satisfy her body's needs for liquids.  This is evidenced by really solid poop and concentrated pee.  She's learning to drink more, though (more on this at the end of the post).
• Foods that stain a lot: blueberries, squash, and the #1 stainer...bananas!!
• Having an always-ready source of boiled water (like this thermos) is super useful
• I should never force feed.  Never, ever!  (But I do it all the time.)

Okay...hmm...

I'd like to give an update on Camille's "drinking problem," too.

As you've heard, we went to Seattle Children's Hospital a couple of weeks ago to see a pediatric PT/lactation consultant about Camille's aversion to drinking from any source other than Mommy.  I followed the PT's advice on slowly diluting her pureed foods with my pumped milk and feeding it to her using a small cup at the beginning of each meal.  This added another step to our already lengthy mealtime routine.  This step happened to be the messiest and most frustrating one, too.  Camille would take one sip from the pink nosey cup and that would be it.  No more!  She would turn, shake her head, scream, try to knock the cup over, clamp her mouth shut, spit out the gulp of liquidy food, etc.  It was a battle, to be sure. She even grew an aversion to all pink drinking cups!

So we gave it about 10 days of trying and we stopped the little pink cup trick. 

What I did instead was that I decided to nurse her in the morning and at night, but that I would skip the two nursing sessions in between so that she would have an opportunity to learn how to drink from another source.

The first day, I put pumped milk into a Born Free training sippy cup and offered it to her in lieu of a nursing session after her first nap.  She screamed for about 45 minutes straight.  Lots of tears, snot, and struggles.  She then got to a point where she was so tired, she actually started sucking.  I honestly almost cried because of how miraculous this event was!!  Eventually, she took in about 4 oz.  I couldn't have asked for more!  After she woke up from her second nap, she struggled with me again for about 10-15 minutes and then eventually drank another 5 oz.!

I nursed her that night and the following morning.  Then that was it.  She figured, "Okay, okay.  So, Mommy does give in after a while."  And with that, she has taken in less than 1 oz. of milk at every cup feeding session thereafter!  ARGH!!  Oh, and because she was not drinking enough during the day time, she was waking up at night multiple times to make up for her fluid intake needs.  Double ARGH!!

The reason that I was so adamant about making this transition now was that Chin & I were attending a marriage retreat this past weekend and we left Camille with our friend Kristie all day Saturday.  Kristie tried to give Camille the cup and she barely took half an ounce.  She was obviously thirsty but would refuse to drink.  She was very constipated and her urine was concentrated. *sigh*

On Sunday, we just about had it.  We even borrowed a ThinkBaby Trainer Cup from our friend Chris whose son would only drink from this type of cup.  A big struggle and no milk was consumed.  Seeing our frustration, Pastor Julie from our church told us to drop Camille off at her house after church and she would watch her all afternoon while we go do something relaxing.  We did not skip a beat!  We dropped Camille off with their family and left them with her drinking problem.  Good riddance, stubborn child!

When we returned, nearly four hours later, they said that she slept for over three hours, woke up, and drank some diluted juice from a Take & Toss sippy cup. 

What the WHAT?! 

I guess she just got thirsty enough to drink it.  Pastor Julie also explained that Camille has drank water before and, even though she doesn't have too much of a problem with it, she prefers milk.  But milk has to come from Mommy.  Milk from any other source is an abomination.  Diluted juice, on the other hand, is something new.  Something that she is willing to explore.  Pastor Julie said to give her this diluted juice for a few days and she will learn how to drink from a sippy cup.  Score!

We've been having her drink diluted apple juice out of this cheap sippy cup ever since Sunday and it has been amazing!  I still skipped one nursing session but instead of struggling to give her milk, I just offer her diluted juice.  She takes it just fine, albeit not the same amount she would take if she were nursing.  I have reinstituted the nursing session after her second nap, just to make sure she is getting enough to liquid (and doesn't wake up in the middle of the night!) and to make the transition smoother and less stressful on all of us.

So, that's where we stand.  We still have a ways to go in training Camille to drink milk from a cup.  But maybe Jesus will decide to come back by then and save us the turmoil.

 

"I love playing with my food!!"



Camille's eighth month: A review

When I was in the thick of sleep troubles and really struggling with...thinking, a friend of mine who is also a new mom said, "Trust me, Bao.  It does get better.  I think around 7 or 8 months is when it gets more fun.  You will start to really enjoy her."

It's totally true!

It's not that I didn't enjoy her before.  But with the vast improvement in the sleep department, I feel like my mind is clearer and I have more energy to enjoy her.  It also helps that she gets cuter and more fun everyday!

Loooves the strings

New this month!

• Camille started reaching out for us.  Arms out.  "Pick me up, Servant!"
• Growling!  She still has the high-pitch scream.  But since I almost always tell her to stop in a stern voice, she has screamed much less and instead has replaced most of the screams with this low-pitch growl.  It is much better than the shrieks!
• One day, she just started babbling.  It is distinct and unmistakable.  Very different from what she was doing before.  Now, her vocalizations are very speechlike.  Full of a variety of consonants and vowel blends.  "Nhai nhai nhai nhai nhai!  Da da da da!  Nga nga nga nga nga!!"  Since Chinese & Vietnamese are both monosyllabic and largely onomatopoeic, this is what we've picked up from Camille's vocalizations thus far:
• Masticate (chew)
• Here
• Tooth/teeth
• Banyan tree 
• Throne
• Poop
  
Camille is soooo brilliant! Right?! :D
• She likes to play with strings.  Um, things like power cords and USB cables.  She likes to chew on them.  Currently, her favorite toy is a toy strap.  A strap that helps latch toys onto our carrier.  She likes to play with this strap by itself...*bite bite bite*
• She also likes remote controls, computers, and cell phones.  But I think that's pretty normal of most babies nowadays.
  
• Camille's attention span has gotten to be longer.  She can play longer by herself before getting bored and whining.  Before, we would hand her any new toy and she would drop the one she was currently holding to grab the new object.  But now, if she likes her current toy, she will continue to play with it and ignore our offer.
• Peek-a-boo is something that entertains her more now than before.  I don't know if she completely gets object permanence yet.  I would hide my phone (one of the most desirable objects for Camille) under a pillow with her looking...and only on a couple of occasions has she reached under the pillow to look for it.  But when I play peek-a-boo with her and consistently pop out on the left and then on the right of the blanket, she can predict which way I was going to pop out next and would turn her gaze that way!  Amazing!  (Sorry if I sound like I'm bragging.  I'm really not.  I am just amazed by how God has created her!)
• Her fine motor skills are starting to show up a lot more.  She's been picking at things with her index fingers more.  She has a ways to go in mastering the pincer grip, but she continues to amaze us with her collaboration of index finger and opposable thumb!
• Teeth!  Two finally popped out.
• She's just sort of starting to scoot/creep (which reminds me of TLC).  She used to roll to get to wherever she needed to go.  Now she has found a more efficient way to scoot to her destination.  She uses all limbs in this effort, but her belly is usually on the ground still.
• As I'd mentioned before, Camille loves to stand.  I think it's so she can be on our same eye level and see more.  Her legs are actually pretty strong, despite their twiggy appearance.  When I prop her up next to furniture, she will hang on and stand for what seems to be as long as she doesn't feel like she's unable.  Wow, what a deep lesson in trust!

The specs
As of March 29, 2011:

• Weight: 14 lb flat - 5%ile (eeks!)
• Height: 27 in - 75%ile
• Teeth: 2, bottom, center

Milestones & important events
March 14 - Camille started having a runny nose that later turned into a cold that lasted for over 2 weeks. Nothing serious...just a bad case of green snot.

March 15 - Camille's first trip to the ER.  Don't worry, it was for Chin's tweaked back.  He's okay now.

March 21 - Camille & I appeared on Komo4 News!



March 25 - Very distinctly, Camille started babbling today!  We also got to enjoy a beautiful day at Pike Place Market, where Camille met her first horse and got splashed in the face with flying fish juice :P

April 1 - Teeth popped out!

April 2 - Teething > lots of salival production > excessive saliva drooled & swallowed > lots of loose stool > Camille's very first diaper rash.  That's right!  First one!

April 6 - On the way home from getting gas at Issaquah Costco, Camille was babbling in the backseat and said, "Daddy!"  She has said it again a few times since then.  But fear not, competative parentkind, she did not intentionally mean "Daddy."

April 8 - First time on the swings!  She liked it!  Oh yeah...and also first [very mild] sun burn.

She was laughing!

Favorite part...
Camille is just more fun!  I'm also thankful for the many opportunities to meet up with folks and even have play dates with little ones.  We love to socialize!

Least favorite... 
I'm not such a big fan of Camille pooping 6 times a day.  Not only is it a pain to change poopy diapers, pooping this much means she's not keeping in some of the nutrients she needs.  She only pooped 6 times a day on one occasion.  But she has been pooping 4+ times a day consistently.  :(

Shout outs
...To Grandma Ng for watching Camille several times this month so that I could get out of the house to either run errands or just to have fun!

...To the nursery people at Rainier Avenue Church.  They are amazing!  They also told us that Camille is the loudest screamer they've ever heard, though.  Oops!

Discoveries & reflections
...Camille looks really good in pink.  I'm not really into pink, but I don't object having Camille in a "non gender neutral" outfit either.  I have just discovered that with Camille's fair complexion, she looks really beautiful in light pink.

...When cute clothes get dirty, I am willing to spot clean and put them on Camille again.  If the clothes are not cute, one drop of drool can legitimately warrant a wardrobe change.

...This is how I know Camille is my kid: she does not like books.  Well, she actually only likes one book.  It's called All Things Bright and Beautiful.  And she only likes one particular page in this 10-page book.  It's the page with a mirror.  She looks at herself and smiles.  My kid!

...I am not a big fan of when Camille goes down for a nap and then wakes up after 40 minutes.  If this happens during her morning nap, that's fine.  She usually lasts until she needs to go down for the afternoon nap.  But if she gets a short afternoon nap, there would be a strong likelihood of a meltdown around 8pm.  Let's say she goes down at 3pm.  She usually stays down until 5 or even 5:30.  But on the rare occasion, she will wake up at 3:40 and after half an hour of just playing in her crib (no crying), she is just up.  This then means that she will need to stay up from 3:40 to 9pm.  That's not a big deal for an adult or even a toddler.  But for a 7-month-old, that is a long stretch of time without a nap.  She is not used to getting a third nap anymore so she will be awake...but life is just miserable for her parents on the occasions that she does have meltdowns!

...I often need to remind myself: It is NOT her fault.  It's not her fault if she wakes up earlier than normal.  It's not her fault if she doesn't want to nurse or eat.  It's especially not her fault if she poops all the time.

...I stress out about short/missed naps a lot.  But, you know, it all usually works out in the end.  She just learns to be flexible :)

Isn't she lovely?

...It feels like I just wrote the 7th month review a couple of weeks ago.  And now she's already 8 months old?!  I feel like she's growing really fast.  This might be because I'm going back to school in two months (*gulp*).

...Nursing a child with new [really sharp] teeth = scary.  If she's playing with something and biting on it just before latching on, it's almost a guarantee that she will bite.  So, not on purpose.  Otherwise, she has not purposely bitten me while nursing...yet.

...Eating bean stew for 3 days in a row makes for a very farty baby.

...Sometimes, I feel guilty that all my conversations revolve around baby.  Because being a mom is my full time job, it is hard for me to think about other things.  As much as I crave for real, rich conversations that are not baby related, I find that my mind will always wander back into thinking about Camille.

...Many of my friends say that around 7 or 8 months is when a mom will start to want another one.  Yep, pretty much!!

Daddy loves Camille a little bit, I think. :)

Camille's seventh month: A review

How did this happen?!  How could it be that this child is already seven months old?!

Time flies, as they say.  But these past seven months have been so dense in experiences and memories that, yes, it is possible that it has been seven months...or even seven years.

So grown up now!

Sleep is not as much of an issue this month.  Camille has more or less gotten used to the whole "parents leave so I can sleep" deal.  The more we think about it, the more we are assured that this was the right decision at the right time for our family.  I believe that the timing is just working out in our favor with these factors:

• Camille being 6 months old means that there are lots of developmental things that enable her to sleep through the night.  Hehe, I'm realizing how vague that sounds.  I just mean that I think she's sleeping deeper, less easily awakened, is mobile enough to worm herself into a comfortable position, etc.
• We recently introduced her to solids and she's been having consistently 2+ solid meals each day for the past couple of weeks.  Some say that solids will help kids sleep through the night.  I don't know if I completely buy that.  But I definitely think that this is a factor.
• I think the biggest contributor to Camille (and us!) getting a good night sleep is the fact that we have moved her into her own room.  We resisted this for a long time because (1) co-sleeping was so easy for nursing her at night, (2) we felt safer with her being in the same room with us, (3) we grew up sharing rooms with our parents, (4) we didn't want her crying to bother the neighbor sharing the 2nd bedroom's wall, (5) Camille is still not financially contributing to our rent, and (6) we didn't want to go through the effort of moving her if we were going to be moving out of this apartment anyway.  Seeing that we will stay here for the foreseeable future, we decided to give Camille her own space.  We miss having her in our room...but not really.  She's just in the other room.  We definitely don't miss (1) being woken up by her tossing & turning, (2) waking her up with our tossing & turning, (3) having to rock her to sleep when she cries so that Chin's sleep doesn't get disturbed, (4) being frustrated when she cries as we sleep train her, (5) actually sleeping in the other bedroom while she sleeps on our giant bed, and (6) not being able to sleep together sometimes because one of us is with the child (guess who?) and the other one is trying to get sleep.

We feel like it's such a night-and-day difference now that Camille has gotten into a rhythm and she's learning how to fall asleep on her own.  Not only are we happier, but we have noticed that Camille is a much happier child, too!

Camille is now much more expressive and mobile.  Some highlights in her development:

• Starting this month, she has been really keen on laying on her side or tummy to sleep.  It was a little scary at first and I would go in to her room to flip her over (yunno, SIDS and all).  But I'm just thinking that she is at an age where she can learn how to flip over if she can't breathe.  Besides, a great benefit of sleeping on her tummy: her fro lays down and results in better hair!
• She sits!  It's amazing what a difference a couple of weeks can make.  One week, she couldn't sit on her own at all.  The next week, she would be a little wobbly.  And the next, she could sit on her own!  Admittedly, I'm pretty sure her giant cloth diapers have been holding her back from reaching this milestone sooner. Now that she is able to sit up, we've been putting her on the potty chair. We tried doing this when she was 3 months old...and her skinny butt fell into the potty hole! Now she loves sitting on the potty chair and kind of treats it like it's her throne. :)
• Camille can play on her own for a longer period of time now that she can more or less sit on her own.  I think maybe her attention span is longer, too.  Who knows.
• She has started to really like chewing on her feet. I know that sounds totally gross, but I let her do it. Think, spinach : Popeye :: toe jam : Camille. 
• Last month, she learned how to be Spitty Gonzales.  This month, she does this thing where she pools up saliva to the back of her throat and gurgles.  It's both gross and fascinating at the same time.
• She got to be very fond of pulling my glasses off.  Aaaaand that is why I got Lasik surgery.  Kind of an expensive remedy to this simple problem...
• Camille likes to rough house.  She likes it when we run around while holding her, or toss her up high, or hold her upside down.  She will laugh hysterically when we do this!
• Despite this, we have noticed that Camille is kind of a cautious child.  When handed a new object, she observes it carefully first before reaching out to grab it.  I think she gets this from Chin...who will spend months researching and weighing options before he buys anything! :P
• She does well with small groups of people.  When we're in a large group setting (especially at night when she's going for a long time without a nap), she tends to be a little more reserved and will sometimes freak out when people laugh loudly.  This doesn't happen during the day, though, because she is usually fine at church.
• She has been extending out more and contorting her body to get objects that are not within reach.
• Oh, how could I forget: she's eating solids now!  We started feeding her some solids soon after she turned 6 months on the recommendation of her pediatric nurse practitioner.  She didn't take to it right away.  But we tried a few days later and she's been liking it ever since!  It's never been a struggle for us to feed her.  She may stop wanting to eat before we are done feeding her that meal, but we take that cue to mean she's done and never let it escalate to a battle.  
  
  

  

  Mmm...fooooood...

• Now that we've introduced her to solids, Camille's poop is definitely more solid and smelly!  She has only shown signs of being slightly constipated once.  But we've definitely observed her using more effort to poop.
• Finally, Chin & I didn't think it would happen...but Camille has started a screaming phase!  Or at least I hope it's just a phase.  It usually happens when she's laying down.  She would let out a series of alarmingly high-pitched shrieks that's just like, "Ugh! Please don't do this at a grocery store or restaurant!  We don't want to be those parents associated with the screaming child."

The specs
As of March 7, 2011:

• Weight: 13 lb 13 oz - 10%ile

By the way, these percentile things are based on the CDC's growth chart.  Which is only meant to be used as a reference and not as a standard.  The WHO growth chart takes into account babies who are breastfed, and should be used as a standard.  (For more information on this, you can read the CDC's statement regarding these growth charts.)  According to the WHO chart, Camille is in the 25%ile for weight.

Milestones & important events
February 14 - Camille's first Valentine's Day!  We spent it with some uber cool people at the Boeing Ski Night.

February 15 - Went to 6-month check-up and found that Camille has not been gaining a lot of weight since the last visit.  Ruh roh...  PNP suggested we start her on solids.

February 16 - Fed her oatmeal cereal + breastmilk + olive oil.  Too watery.  Did not like it at all and she actually didn't eat any of what we fed her.  (She also started out on a sour mood.  That should have been our clue to not introduce food to her at this time.  Hehe...rookie mistake!)

February 18 - Left Camille with Hilary, Lam, and David while I went to an eye appointment.  The appointment ran a little long and Camille got hungry.  So I asked Lam to feed her some mashed bananas.  She ate it!  Her first solid food.  Thank you, Auntie Lam!

February 22 - Chin & I didn't get to go out on Valentine's Day.  After a little bit of whining, I got him to get a sitter (the Grays - thank you!) and take me out to dinner.  Hehe :)

February 24 - Despite the snow, Camille and I ventured into Seattle to attend a photo shoot for Zulily.  She starred in their online ads the next day!

Um...this might be a copyright infringement. 
But if it's not, this picture is staying up!
(photo courtesy of Zulily.com)

February 26 - We transformed our office/guest bedroom into Camille's room.  Yep, the kid got the boot!

March 5 - Camille got to sit up in a high chair at a restaurant (Chipotle) for the first time!

Eating with the grown-ups

March 6 - I fed Camille some pho noodles.  "Mmm...that's some good MSG, Mommy!"

March 8 - Camille's first International Women's Day + Shrove Tuesday.  Although she didn't have any pancakes.  Next year!

March 9 - I got iLasik surgery!  Now I can see without corrective lenses.  I was awake during the entire surgery so they gave me some [ahhhh...] Valium to relax.  Because of this, I couldn't breastfeed Camille until 8pm that night.  Oh boy, she was not a happy girl.  She ate a whole lot of solids that day (she still refuses the bottle)!

March 13 - We put Camille in the nursery at church for the first time.  She loved playing with the other kids...even though she was supposed to be napping.  Oh well, she made up for it with a 3.5-hour nap later in the afternoon. :)

Favorite part...
Finally getting to sleep through the night again!  This hasn't happened since my 20th week of pregnancy! 

Least favorite... 
There was one night that I let Camille cry-it-out for 15 minutes when she woke up in the middle of the night.  In the morning when I took her to go potty, I saw that her urine was more concentrated than usual.  It was yellow.  Her urine has never been that yellow ever before or ever since.  I felt so bad!!  But because I didn't feed her that night, she started sleeping through the night from then on.  So, I guess it turned out for the best.  But I still felt horrible that she was thirsty that night.

Shout outs
...To the Pangs (Keone + Ja-Hye + Keilana + Jedidiah), the Kos (Quan + Dave + Caden + Liam), and the Ngs (Chung + Alice + Anna Jane) for passing on some infant feeding stuff to Camille.  Thank you so much!

...To Lam, David, and Hilary for babysitting Camille.  Thanks for taking her out on a walk and even feeding her banana.  You guys rule!

...To the Grays for taking care of Camille while we enjoyed our hot date.  Camille always feels so comfortable with your family!

...To Kristie for spending almost a whole day with Camille while I was getting Lasik done!

Thank you, Auntie Kristie!

Discoveries & reflections
...There is a huge jump in laundry items after we introduced solids.  It sure is a messy endeavor, folks!

...I have learned that sleepy time parenting is not the bottom line in child development. Neither is feeding choice. Or what kinds of games I play with Camille when she's awake. I need to pray more because God holds the key.

...My mind is always racing with thoughts of how to Tetris together the optimal schedule for Camille's day.

...I'll say it now: I hate schedules.  I hate making one for my family and I hate having to abide by it.

...I always feel like I need to top off Camille's sleep tank during the week to account for the missed naps over the weekend.

...I have always loved smelling Camille's breath. I wonder if this will change once she starts solids. (Update: Yes, a little bit.  But I still love smelling her breath!)

...I often wonder if Camille is going to be a drama queen or a dull kid.  I would love for her to have lots of personality.  But, can we handle it? :-/

Crankster

...Fathers are usually very concerned about physical growth of their children.  Chin routinely weighs Camille on our bath scale...which is almost never accurate.

...Every parent seems to want their kid to excel in something. That's nothing new. But what's funny is how parents want their infants to excel in things...like weight, or height, or when they are capable of rolling over, how long they sleep at night. I must admit, I am one of those parents! But it is silly, isn't it?

...I knew that I would take a lot of pictures of my children.  What I didn't know was that I'd be taking 30 shots of the same thing. Where half of them are very blurry, 5 are only moderately blurry but the kid is not looking at the camera, 5 where she has completely wiggled off-screen, a few shots where I try to use flash but it just looks wrong, and finally a couple that are truly fantastic! And then I'm left with the tough decision of which picture to post on Facebook.

Camille loves watching the YouTube video of this laughing baby!

..."Likes" on Facebook are weak sauce. Only comments matter.

...Chin and I are getting better at deciphering Camille's different cries. Nightmare? Gas? The I-can't-fall-back-asleep cry? Just crying because she's amused by the sound of her own voice? We can tell them apart pretty well now :)

...I crave for the day when I can listen to a sermon from beginning to end!

...I'm starting to believe people when they say, "It gets better!!"

...I have learned that no camera can capture the magic of this child.

Mahalo!!